Tuesday, September 29, 2009

i cant resist

i know this will lose me a lot of freinds, but i just thought of this and absolutely had to share.
blame it on earl

what did one clam say to the other ?
"shut the shell up!"

a little something

so i wrote this here
and i decided to re-post it on my blog.
and here it is.

when i look toward the light
you see only my silhouette
and you question
i have no answers
for you
only that i see color
and when i turn around
i only see you

so thats that
funner things to follow

Thursday, September 24, 2009

why is it...

that i seem to find myself more witty when responding and/or commenting on someone elses blog than my own.
fodder for the pen/keyboard perhaps? i dont know. but this is all to say that "i got nuthin'".
cause i dont.
tomorrow is another day
good night
and good luck

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

amazing grace

how sweet the sound
that saved a wretch like me
i once was lost, but now am found
was blind but now i see

twas grace that taught my heart to fear
and grace my fears relieved
how precious did that grace appear
the hour i first believed

through many dangers toils and snares
i have already come
tis grace has brought me safe thus far
as long as life endures

yea when this flesh and heart shall fail
and mortal life shall cease
i shall possess within the veil
a life of joy and peace

when we've been thee ten thousand years
bright shining as the sun
we've no less days to sing god's praise
than when we've first begun


so this song makes me cry
and i'm not terribly interested in the religious overtones/undertones.
i just love the song
i think of the grace mentioned as that which is found in nature, my fellow man, poetry, love, etc.

but (!), the lyrics are actually the (much) smaller part of it.
the lyrics are not nearly as powerful for me as the melody is.
and THAT i cannot explain.
the melody makes me cry. i said that already, didn't i...
it makes me think of my F---ed-up-ness, and looking up to the sky and crying.\, wishing i had answers.

that's about as personal as i've ever been on here.
if you must laugh, please do so quietly :)

Monday, September 21, 2009


by sir elton john

i can only type the chorus cause it takes too damn long to type the whole thing out, and for some reason i'm not being allowed to cut and paste
(i know. i'm a tech ignoramus... and a slow typer-ist)

how come birds dont fall,

from the sky when they die ?

how come birds always look,

for a quiet place to hide?

these words can't explain,

what i feel inside.

like birds i need a quiet place to hide.

ok raise your hand if you've heard that song already
anyone....? anyone.....? buehler...? buehler....?

i heard it a long time ago
then i looked for it again because it settled in my head one day
and the lyrics (the rest of them as well) are really pure poetry
worth looking at
and the song is great too
really worth a listen (give it about 3 seconds to start)

Friday, September 18, 2009

please insert something witty and engaging

stuff happens.
i haven't been on here in a very long time.
like since january.
and every time i thought to come back, i felt really bad as i hadn't in a long time.
so i didnt.
and then this cycle repeated itself many many many times.
it came mostly from watching other people consistently come up with gems.
almost every day.
and my not having material and/or finding the time to make it happen.
and the commitment i felt and couldnt live up to.
perhaps that makes a bit of sense to some of you.
i get too carried away with things (particularly ones that i like and care about) and they take up tremendous amounts of time. too much. and then it's all or nothing.
a horrible disease.

anyway, i decided to get over it.

for today.

we'll see what tomorrow brings.

for now i am going to be content with saying hello.

and saying that i've missed y'all.

and now let me post this before i lose my nerve.