i haven't been on here in a very long time.
like since january.
and every time i thought to come back, i felt really bad as i hadn't in a long time.
so i didnt.
and then this cycle repeated itself many many many times.
it came mostly from watching other people consistently come up with gems.
almost every day.
and my not having material and/or finding the time to make it happen.
and the commitment i felt and couldnt live up to.
perhaps that makes a bit of sense to some of you.
i get too carried away with things (particularly ones that i like and care about) and they take up tremendous amounts of time. too much. and then it's all or nothing.
a horrible disease.
anyway, i decided to get over it.
we'll see what tomorrow brings.
for now i am going to be content with saying hello.
and saying that i've missed y'all.
and now let me post this before i lose my nerve.