ghosts

they had a name
when they were alive
how does it disappear
so quickly
i entertained the thought
many times
of forgetting
but it doesnt go away
i push the button
the bell rings
and down i go
and all that ends well
is not well

ha. ha. ha.

i wrote this a while back
it was the end of a relationship
it surprises me in terms of its upbeat tone
whatever
i'll take the upbeat tone
i can use it

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and if there really is no place for us
thats alright
and surprisingly
i find that i am at peace with that
given the choice again
i would choose
the same
and i am the reason
this time
an aberration
but i haven't stopped growing
and this seems tot be part of the process
mostly introspective
and it's turning out to be not that bad a place after all
maybe it never really was

yeterday's news

the obituary is a few weeks too late
but that time has afforded me a luxury
i have read what others have written
and the grief has had time to ferment and mature
and it has settled itself in a fashion
what i have arrived at may sound no different
indeed, it may not be different at all
but my eyes are tearing as i write
so i know i'm still there

staring at the keyboard wont get me a title. ok. i'm leaving this space blank.

and though i both tire and despair
i am back where i began
with less determination
less hope
sleep will elude me
as it does
but hopefully for only a short while longer
and so i dedicate this time to you
to us
to freedom from the future
and at this juncture
where there is nothing left but tomorrow
i join with you
in quiet celebration
of yesterday

word verifications

so mine was "resturb"
i wonder if that's being disturbed yet again...

anyway...

this is diane
you should go visit her and see what all the hype is about
yes. it's all related.

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the questions
asked
wordlessly
to another
chosen
tired
nameless
defeated
proud
nowhere
hurt
hungry
still
tired
out
of order
these are the answers

something worth considering...

no i wasn't paid for this
it is a public service announcement
out of the kindness of my heart

stop snickering dammit!

blue diamond makes various flavored almonds
i tasted the smokehouse ones (and they are worth looking into)
but that was before i met the wasabi and soy sauce almonds
ladies and gentlemen, we have a winner

wow

something more upbeat

hooray!



i sat on top of the slide last night
thinking
that if places have energy
this would be a most joyous place
this would be a place of dreams
and that in the evenings
out of the sight
of the ever-watchful probing eye
they roam free
in little pink sundresses and little tan shorts
so i slid down and wiped wiped off the day's rain
and made room for the prophets of tomorrow