Saturday, January 23, 2010

a wish

i wish i could let go of you
today
because i know you have
of me
and all the praying
and the hoping
and all that shit
it hasnt changed a damned thing
you've killed me
and though i'm no fool
i've come back
a thousand times
and i'm tired
i'm so tired
but you wont let me let go
because it's yours
only yours
to give
and you dont
love me
you dont

17 comments:

Beth said...

Sounds so heartbreaking.

Irish Gumbo said...

Hope may spring eternal, but sometimes it can be an excruciating pain in the everything.

Sometime, someday, close your eyes and cut the wire, it won't matter if it is the red one or the blue one...explosions often can't be avoided...but they can be survived.

Georgina said...

Reading this made me remember a moment/vision/shiver/feeling I had recently, yet I don't know if I was asleep or wake when I had the moment/vision/shiver/feeling. - G

Marla said...

My heart is breaking for you.

Brian Miller said...

sometimes walking away isnt the struggle as much as what you have to leave behind. this one stings a bit.

Safiaaaaa said...

damn thats sad

Noelle said...

...sob...

i know this pain.
it is a rotten putrid smell
masking the fragrance of my soul.

Lana Banana said...

"you've killed me"

hmm, given the other things you say, it sounds more like the homicide is still in progress . . .

you're killing me . . .

JoJo said...

What a sad poem. I hope it's not based on personal experience. :(

Monkey Man said...

We've all felt that pain. It is part of life and growth. But if we dont' grow beyond it, we fester and whither away. Not letting go is like taking poison and expecting the other person to die.

Diane said...

You can walk away. You're stronger than you know. This I know.

secret agent woman said...

What I have learned from a relationship that nearly killed me, is that if it makes you tired, it's not of any value to begin with.

justsomethoughts... said...

beth - it is.

irish - i cant. you should know.

georgina - i am honored.

marla - not worth it.

mr miller - you're right. this would be the one.

safiaaaaa - yep.

noelle - well put.

lana banana - every day. this one is looking back. it's tiring.

jojo - it is.

monkey man - well put. sometimes it's all we have. or dont have.

diane - i would like to think so. but after this long, i'm not so sure.

secret agent woman - perhaps. but it's not that easy.

Faiqa said...

Sigh. Yes. I know what you mean.

Marla said...

Yes, you are worth it. You just don't know that .... yet.

bhavesh said...

expertly explain your feelings.I like the way you write and pen down your feelings.

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EcoGrrl said...

thanks for visiting my world. your journey is an interesting one. this piece feels like Something. unleash those fingers and let's hear some more.